my discoveries

It’s raining and cold today. Today stands windy and the heaven looks grimly at midday. Brr- what eloquent are mops and mows of the fall!  However, the seasonable weather doesn’t depress but uplifts the heart and sets a grateful smile. “Wow!” you may be surprised “is it possible?” Yes, it is. I have forgot even my troublesome headache that became the inseparable part of my being after the awful events of 1974.  All the above sounds mysterious but there are no mystery at all. My computer shut down for ever and it looked as if I had lost any connection with the life, but now I am playing with my new keyboard and the hearty “Hi, my dear” comes out of itself again. Is it not the miracle?

The heavy sound accompanied the death of my computer, the extinction of the light on my old screen. That was harsher than current sleet! Even the dream about purchasing new computer looked as the wildest utopia because of my social status of the jobless disabled… (my living as the dependent on family explains my material helplessness and depicts my destiny that’s above my potency to change it to better).  Therefore I accepted the computer crash as my own departure without any farewell.  It was awful indeed. And that explains my current joy – I am blogging again.   Wow, I am writing new post and it questions loudly  “have I the right to accept such precious gift? Had I the right to request all the  savings of my family  (the cost of new computer) for to depict just the current weather and to do that in the language that is unknown to my friends?

It is fine to write – that’s grand to share the heart – to forget all my limitations.  My blogging enables me to sense the gratitude just tangibly. Wow, it would be so fine in case you could sense though a tiny part of what overfills my heart at the moment! However the the sleet don’t cease under the window: my self taught English beats a tattoo on the roof – lots of questions wheel in the head. I want to say so much, but I need no less the new accessories to my computer for to do that …  Where is the solution of my material problems? Is there any at all? What for were the last questions? Why is it not enough just to gaze at the rain?